This week has been the WORST!!! When does it get better? After this week, my hope is diminished, my hope for a child, my hope for health, and my hope for a stable future. This week started off awesome when Doug and I made an offer on a home here in ABQ, the offer was accepted and we were officially “under contract” to buy our very first home. We were hopeful. With the purchase of this house we could have a yard for Lucy, extra bedrooms for visitors, a place to invest our money, and more importantly the place we would bring home our baby and live for the next several years. We hoped that this house would bring happiness.
A couple of days went by and we got a phone call from our mortgage officer saying that she made some mistakes on our pre-qualifying paperwork and we no longer qualify for the loan. Hope was lost. No yard for Lucy, no extra space, no planting roots, you get the idea.
So, where do I go from here? How do I get it back? To me, hope is little”tender mercies”, if you will, that tell me that it will all work out. I guess I should start paying attention to those tender mercies that point to a successful adoption. The most recent one I can think of is all the donations that we have received to fund our adoption, over $6000! It is so easy to forget our blessings, even such a BIG one as this. All I can do is try harder to recognize them. This will help me to hope, which will be the ease to my pain.